The NICU Roller Coaster

When I lived in Georgia I recall a bridge with lights above the 6 lanes. The lanes changed directions according to the need of the flow of traffic, not by time of day. Needless to say it was confusing, exciting, and a little scary. While approaching the bridge to see if there was a red X or a green arrow I would feel a little jittery not knowing what to expect. Maybe I could stay in the lane I was driving or I may have to move over 4 lanes, ahhh. Quite frightening and exhilarating, a lot like a roller coaster.

Riding the elevator up to the 6th floor is like being a block away from the bridge. Walking down the NICU hallway is approaching the bridge. Walking into the NICU is looking for the light in my lane. Entering Brody's room is preparing to change lanes if necessary. Reading the nurses face is relief or scramble.

We have had a "change lanes and back again" kind of day. We (my mom & I) couldn't get in to see Brody this morning because they were collecting more blood cultures to check the level of the infection. Then when we did I should have seen the red X when our nurse said, "The Dr. is going to come talk to you." But I just stayed in my lane. Unfortunately the talk with the Dr. didn't go well. She is a resident that needs to work on her communication skills a bit and I am a new mommy that needs things explained in detail. Needless to say I called Brent at work and he came quickly and drove me "across the bridge". Basically, they would like to do some more tests to check the severity of the infection Brody has contracted. Upon Brent and I discussing in depth our options, complications, and treatments with our personal NICU nurse (Susan Neptune) and the attending Dr. the testing is waiting until some more questions are answered tomorrow.

Then before we left we got AWESOME news; the PDA is closed. It closed with the first round of medication and without surgery. Thank you Jesus!!!!!! This is the NICU roller-coaster, up down and a loop de loop in between.

Today as I was remembering the crazy bridge in Georgia I thought, "Isn't that bridge like the signals we give God about our life?" When we are doing something we know we shouldn't or when we are pridefully accomplishing life we put up a red X . Yet when we need Christ or are having a moment when we feel close to Him we exude the green arrow. Can you imagine being God and having to be either permitted or invited into our lives? I pray that as I ride the NICU Roller Coaster and decide which lane to choose, my signal to Christ is a green arrow inviting Him drive my car. But then again I pray I give Him the reign not only during this ride but for all of my days and I pray that for you too :)