What's Another Week

I have waited for my baby for 35 years. I know most of you think, "How is that so when she is only 25.", lol. First of all I am unbelievably 38, secondly I have wanted a baby since I was 3. Ask my cousins I always wanted to play babies or be the barbie that had the baby (never the Stewardess Barbie - sorry that's not politically correct, Air Flight Attendant Barbie/Ken). I never excelled at academics or wanted to go to college. I reluctantly did and earned two degrees. I am not a sports girl, no laughing from my kids at that statement of the year. I never wanted to be a career girl. I have always wanted to be a wife and a mother. To say I have been saddened by our 4 miscarriages would be a vast understatement. Being a wife to Brent has been a joy. He is so appreciative of every little thing I do for him whether it's making cookies or cleaning the bath. And I am so appreciative that I get the luxury of being a house wife and not a career women. Do you know the Scrubbing Bubbles commercial? Where the bubbles say, "We work hard so you don't have to." Well, if you ever hear me call Brent Mr. Bubbles now you know why. He works hard so I don't have to. I love taking care of our home and inviting others to fellowship with us. But all of that has never squelched my desire for a child (I should write son because I have always known God would give me a son).

So waiting on God has been something that I do best. About 2 years ago while at Good News at the mall I saw a tea cup I had to purchase. It says, "Delight yourself in the Lord...and He will give you the desires of your heart. Psalm 37:4" I have prayed that Psalm for 2 years, believing it, echoing it in my head, and etching it in my heart. God has granted me the desire of my heart. Am I sad and disappointed that Brody is not coming home tomorrow or that he has spent his first 11 weeks of life away from home, yes. Am I angry, not on my life. God is good, all the time. Our dear friend Patrick said maybe this was the only way God could get a baby to us. Maybe God wanted to give me my desire but with my/our genetic make-up this was the only avenue. I don't know. But I do know beyond a shadow of a doubt that God is in control and Brody will come home in perfect timing, when it is safe. Thank you for your prayers, I know they gave Dr. Lynch the right answer from God to wait.

Brody is still having his usual "spells". They are getting better and they are reflux related, which means he will grow out of them. We will re-evaluate Master Brody at the end of the week and decide if there is another target exodus. He is growing and doing so well he just needs to mature a little bit more. I tease the nurses that he is not having these spells any longer and that they are making up stories on him because they love him and don't want him to leave. Everyone at the NICU loves him or they are all really good liars and actors. I can't believe it's been 11 weeks and he still isn't even due until December 13th. Like I told Dr. Lynch, "After 13 years of marriage, 4 miscarriages, and 11 weeks in the NICU, what's one more week?"

Psalm 27:14Wait for the LORD; be strong and take heart and wait for the LORD.
Psalm 33:20We wait in hope for the LORD; he is our help and our shield.